I’m so disgusted with myself, and what I’ve become. I spend night after night intoxicated, and I’ve lost track of how many days it’s been since I was sober. Even after watching my best friend fall victim to addiction, here I am embracing it with open arms. I can feel it creeping up on me. And I know I need to put a stop to it but it’s honestly the only thing that makes me temporarily forget how much hurt there is inside me. I just don’t quite know what to do with myself anymore.